On the edge of the Mediterranean Sea, I walked until the wind became louder than my thoughts and I was delivered, like palming an egg gently, to a moment of grace.
For the feelings that had been rising and falling were shimmering with too much intention to be swallowed without question, even with salt lining my lips to taste.
Heart and mind were wrestling somewhere up with the gods.
So I gave my worry to the sea.
And watched the dogs run, filling up instead on their unending joy.
They explored with nothing in front of their noses beyond that simple promise of being.
Nodding, I remembered. Tenuously but with tenacity, love is there.
It is so simple to be connected.
While Kipling chased the gulls, Ben and I took in the approach of the waves.
That is what pure means to me, to trust with the tide.
It was my choice beyond choosing, whispering true.
But I am far from that certainty in this moment, humbly confused, as the fear hydra keeps raising her ugly heads repeatedly until I am nauseated from the ducking. The lessons keep presenting themselves.
Today, I want to wriggle out of my skin, to be back in that freedom of absolute beauty…
…so I will try instead to sit still and be present, calling on the respite I know is possible…
à tout moment…it is here.
Sending Peace and Strength to the States especially (please vote if you have not already) along with a fair dose of prayers for good measure,
Thank you so much for being a part of this community,
Heather
Thank you so much for being a part of this community,
Heather
Your posts are chock full of passion and emotion and embroidered by the beauty of your photos…
I seeing the Goldens as I miss our Rufus everyday and wonder if we will ever know the JOY that these loyal furry friends share with us.
XO
These photos put me in mind of the last verse of Dylan's 'Mr. Tambourine Man':
"Yes, to dance beneath the diamond sky
With one hand waving free
Silhouetted by the sea
Circled by the circus sands
With all memory and fate
Driven deep beneath the waves
Let me forget about today until tomorrow."
– Carolyn (@hillonthehouse on IG)
What a beautiful post dear Heather.
Love, hugs & prayers for you ~ FlowerLady
Heather, I am here with you always since you so generously wrote and shared information with me before our stay in Arles in June. However, as a newcomer to your blog, I am always hesitant to comment on your deeply personal sharings. Your photos and thoughts are gifts. Thank you. I believe you will find the happiness you seek.
Stunning photographs
Beautiful shots of the dogs and the beach; breathe it in and let the gods wrestle with the rest.
So many lives hang in the balance today as does the fate of our planet. I'll be returning to this post throughout the day, whenever I need to stop and take a deep breath. Best wishes to you my friend as we all work to live in and enjoy the moment.
Just beautiful. Taking deep breaths right along with you.
I can practically feel my breathing slow and my blood pressure go down as I look at your pictures and read your words about seeking peace.
That golden light makes everything right.
Best wishes to you!
BEAUTIFUL. love you!