Respect

My heart goes out to the families and all that have been touched by the horrific tornado that decimated Moore, Oklahoma. Watching the video of the storm, I was transfixed by the twister’s howl. The sound rung in my ears long after, as memories from childhood rose to the surface. I lived in Mason, Michigan from the ages of seven to eleven. During that time, two tornados passed over the town. In both instances, I was struck by the utter quiet beforehand, that even the birds stopped singing and the sky sucked into itself like a bruise. And in the second case, I was at my elementary school. We stayed in the classroom until the windows began to shake, then were lead outdoors hand in hand, backs against the building’s brick walls, to the underground shelter. We were there for quite some time. Some of the other children began to cry and our teacher’s comforted us, just as the teacher’s in Moore must have done. I have the greatest respect for their bravery and efforts.

I had already been thinking about the power of Nature over the previous few days. Just when we thought that spring had finally arrived, the rains came and more fell in a day than in the month past. The Rhone, that rife river that borders our town, rose over night to the highest levels that I have seen in the past eight years that I have seen since calling Arles home. As I arrived the morning after with the dogs for our morning walk, my jaw dropped in surprise. Our walkway along the quay had been covered, blocked off with a current strong enough to pull entire trees, ripped from their roots, down and down. We all stopped, listening to current’s roar. Nature’s force is also to be respected. And feared.

Last night the word “respect” was evoked in a context that disturbed me greatly. Dominique Venner, a 78 year-old essayist and activist of the extreme right in France, walked into Paris’ Notre Dame Cathedral at a little after 4 p.m., left a letter on the altar and then shot himself in the mouth. Fifteen hundred visitors were evacuated. And while the contents of the letter have not been yet made public, Venner wrote a post on his blog on Tuesday denouncing the same-sex marriage law that has recently been signed into law in France as well as warning of the country’s takeover by “Islamists.” He said his act was “a call to sacrifice”–that symbolic gestures such as his were needed more than words–especially regarding the upcoming protest against same-sex marriage on May 26. Upon hearing the news of Venner’s act, Marine Le Pen, the head of the Front National political party, which is also extreme right, offered “all of our respect to Dominique Venner” and that his “eminently political”  suicide was meant to “wake up the people of France.” While Dominique Venner was considered to be a marginal of the extreme right, Marine Le Pen is its queen, one who received over 20% of the popular vote in certain regions during the previous presidential election and is a front-runner for the next. Her vision of respect frightens me as I believe equality is an integral part of its meaning. And that hatred or intolerance are its antonym. 

I didn’t sleep well because of it and so was still slightly groggy as I headed back to the house with the dogs. A screech of tires pushed me awake as a long black Audi went the wrong way on a one way side street to cut over to the main street in front of our house. I pulled the dogs up on to the sidewalk just in time. The driver’s face was impassive. As I turned the corner, I was amazed to see a huge delivery truck barrelling towards us and the black Audi–now stopped and pulled half way into an alley–also going the wrong way down this, another one way street. The van slammed to a halt and the young driver asked the woman in the Audi if she could pull forward a yard so that he could pass. She blankly refused without offering an explanation. He begged her, “Please Madame, please,” explaining that he was blocked in behind, then slowly became angry in frustration. She became equally so and would not move. I could hear their yelling escalate as I quickly herded the dogs indoors. From the window above, I watched along with the local shop-keepers who had cell phones in hand ready to call the police. Finally, the truck driver said, “Fine, if you aren’t going to move, then I will make you move.” He got back into his truck and made to ram the Audi, skidding to a halt at the last moment. The woman stared at him stonily. He slowly backed the truck with difficulty down the way he had come, returning at a run to spit on the windshield of the Audi while pounding the hood. After he had left, the woman waited until she was sure he had gone, then leisurely made the move he has asked of her. It was so easy and only took a minute. Does the fact that this woman was white and the young man was of North African descent have something to do with how things played out? I don’t know. But both showed a lack of respect. For the law, for our fellow human beings and animals. 

There seems to be a violence in the air, literally and figuratively. 

So stay safe everyone. And let us be respectful of all that is around us. 
And within us too.

Lucky you

Lucky you.
That phrase kept coming back to me last week like a boomerang, one always thrown with the finest of intentions. 
Lucky you to live in Provence. “Yes, yes, I know,” I respond, automatically. For that is the awaited reply, the proper one as well. 

But as I have mentioned in the past, just because I hang my hat in this lauded region doesn’t mean that the everyday stress of life magically disappears. So while all is relatively well, health intact etc., Remi and I found ourselves in strong need of a soupape, a breather to let off the steam fogging up our vision.

We have discovered something of a spot of the “c’est réellement un spot ici” kind. It isn’t terribly well known, even amongst the Provençaux. A Secret Provence? Yes, it does exist but if you think I am going to tell you where it is, you overestimate my otherwise generous nature…at least for now.

Perhaps I am simply being my superstitious self. For every time we visit, no matter what worries pre-occupy our busy minds, they disappear like dandelion fluff. I am holding tight to my little talisman.

Yesterday the rain threatened, bullyishly, despite having already trapped us inside all weekend. But it passed. The path was still wet and we had to keep a strict eye on the furry ones who longed to roll in the mud.

For the first time, I had taken my camera with me, certain that the act of choosing to look would bring about something positive as it always does. And although I am not as thrilled with the photos as I was in taking them, I am content in the memory of that two hour stroll.

For as that golden light, the one that side-swipes the dark broke through, I stopped walking for a moment and a thought without thinking misted over me: “It really is beautiful, Provence.” Vision cleared.

Lucky me.

Blonde Ambition

Shhh…I am not really here. See, that is me pedalling like mad to head on over to my guest post for the charming Sara in Le Petite Village. Would you like to join me? Please do, I saved some of my favorite landscape photos from our recent trip to the Upper Luberon for exactly this moment.
And yet…I couldn’t let you go without giving a crucial peony update. Because who in their right mind could have ever guessed that these gussied up blooms would shift from this…

…to this…

…and finally…to this! A case of blonde ambition if ever there was one.

Not to mention solid proof that true beauty never fades, it simply changes.
Wishing you all a wonderful weekend ahead. May you zoom into delightful surprises…
…such as this fantastic pop-up card that my friend Jeanne at Collage of Life sent, along with the ever wonderful gift of music. Good to keep sending song along so…

…this is a track brought to me by Suze at Subliminal Coffee. Enjoy!
But what are you still doing here? 
Go on over to my guest post…Now ‘git!

Sunset in the olive grove

Our light.

In Provence, it is another member of the family.

It can be moody, blindingly brilliant or caress with a tenderness that is almost painful. It might show you parts of yourself that you had tried to hide or illuminates a love that you have long held dear. It is a powerful reminder.

Seldom banal, it is as expressive as its people and as changeful, as wanton as the seasons that push time with a heavy hand.

How often it has struck me silent and aroused the wonder that beauty can bring. At such moments as this, a sunset in an olive grove, I feel suspended with no need to clutch or ask for more.

For this is our light. In Provence, we are kith and kin.

The pleasure in forgetting

I often bemoan the difficulties with my memory. Words, in either English or French, are almost there but disappear with the wisp of a powder puff. In their stead, I will pounce upon useless details that serve nothing. At times I am fearful for the future, wondering if there will be nothing left but dust. And so I document, in thoughts and pictures, events that I would be better off simply enjoying, in order to safe guard them somewhere. An external hard drive of my life.
And yet there can be certain upsides to my state. I keep my favorite novels on the shelf, knowing that I will be able to reread them anew with only the vaguest recollections, touch points of a ship bobbing on the tide. I experienced a similar moment of “oh, yes” today at the market, watching a young woman tuck a paper-wrapped bouquet of peonies under her arm. “I love peonies,” I remembered. 
And so I walked up past the baskets of strawberries to the flower stand for the first time in months, since autumn, having let orchid statues fill the vases past their winter due date. The seller smiled with surprise to see me. “It has been a long time.” It has, I nodded. He knows that I prefer lighter colors, white whenever possible, yet steered me towards coral tight-fisted blooms. As I was preparing to pay, he turned as he often does to grab their paler cousins and wrapped them too, a gift. “They won’t last past the weekend anyway.” I gave my sincere thanks, for that is what they were and wished him a Bon Weekend.
Arriving back at the apartment, I stacked my red peppers and tomatoes, leaving the flowers for last, until even after having wiped down the kitchen. I reached up into the glass cabinet to bring down the right vases and trimmed the stems. Lowering the bouquets into water, I arranged them with tiny pushes, a balancing act and was content with my work. Content with the soft feathering petals and light smoke of fragrance. Content in recognition, the pleasure of forgetting.

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