“What is built up, what is torn down, what remains,” I say to describe what interests me the most in my work. Patina. In the immediate, on the surface and in ourselves. Save that there is no work. I am not writing and these are the few photos taken with my new camera which was bought with such hope in my wings. I am too tired from my day job to create. I cannot find the words, as much as I would like to, and that makes me very nervous. Pacing-like. Save that life is not always simple, there is light always too amidst the shadows that ache, and so I can throw like a flare against the sky, four words:
I have met someone.
Yes. I know you are happy for me. I can feel some of you clapping your hands, or raising them to your lips in little prayer, an automatic gesture. And even in the knowing of that, I am blessed.
Because here is the thing. Even when love comes calling…in all its beauty beyond divine…I now know that my own well-being is up to me. I cannot only be alive within another’s arms, even if I feel the comfort with a recognition that makes me cry. He is. And he is beautiful. But it is for me to find my way forward. With him, without him. Or together. On we go, with what we build up, what we tear down, what remains. It is so complex and yet so simple. Rising and falling like a breath.
What beautiful wishes Helen. May I return them to you in kind…
Oh I don't agree! The beauty of your kindness came through your words crystal clear for me. Thank you SO much for staying with me and still reading. It means more than I can say. xo
Believe it!! Believe it!!! xoxox
Enjoy the moment
in all your layers
Enjoy the love in shadow
and light
Until we read again…..
Bernadette xo
I love the nickname "Rocket"
a poem from the sun and her flowers- by rupee Kaur –
like the rainbow
after the rain
joy will reveal itself
after sorrow
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enjoy the coming days/months
Next year. Maybe for keeps. We just bought an apartment (which will be home base after retirement) and have a very sick cat, so this summer we are staying close to home. But next year MIGHT be my last season at the Met, and if that's the case we will be staying for good. I can't quite believe the time is coming!
So happy things are going well for you. I still check your posts and am always excited to see a new one! Love your words, pictures and the style in which you express yourself.
Beautiful pictures, happy news. You complete you, but company is good 🙂
Hello Heather, Great to see your post today. I am thrilled to hear your good news and wish you happiness, creativity and love in all you do
Helen xx
I too am so happy for you. I have been following your blog for quite some time and wanted to write before but…unfortunately, not gifted in that area. Love your honesty Heather. Best wishes!