“What is built up, what is torn down, what remains,” I say to describe what interests me the most in my work. Patina. In the immediate, on the surface and in ourselves. Save that there is no work. I am not writing and these are the few photos taken with my new camera which was bought with such hope in my wings. I am too tired from my day job to create. I cannot find the words, as much as I would like to, and that makes me very nervous. Pacing-like. Save that life is not always simple, there is light always too amidst the shadows that ache, and so I can throw like a flare against the sky, four words:
I have met someone.
Yes. I know you are happy for me. I can feel some of you clapping your hands, or raising them to your lips in little prayer, an automatic gesture. And even in the knowing of that, I am blessed.
Because here is the thing. Even when love comes calling…in all its beauty beyond divine…I now know that my own well-being is up to me. I cannot only be alive within another’s arms, even if I feel the comfort with a recognition that makes me cry. He is. And he is beautiful. But it is for me to find my way forward. With him, without him. Or together. On we go, with what we build up, what we tear down, what remains. It is so complex and yet so simple. Rising and falling like a breath.
A busy day job will do that to you – keep you from the things you love to do. I am happy for you Heather and hope things will continue to go well.
Joy and happiness and bon courage. As others say, it's complex, you're working on it, good for you, and we are all so happy for you.
As for whether words are flowing at the moment, dry spells happen. Don't worry overly, because sometimes the muse just needs a little time to rest and regroup.
you're right! I'm delighted for you! And, you're right that your own well being is your own responsibility. Onward and Upward! xoxo
Hooray, hoping for many joyous years filled with absolute love, which you so deserve.
Suzana x
Joy! Many blessings!
“life is not always simple…I have met someone.”
A beginning of a wonderful new story.
To create then unfurl one’s life is exciting.
I missed you! The joy of life comes from within, you are a survivor Heather and you deserve much love. But more important, you love yourself!
Well, that is wonderful news! Everyone deserves and needs companionship and nurturing.
I agree with Judith Ross, even in a long term relationship, we are learning all the time. Not just about the other person, but about oneself. And it seems to me that you have forced yourself to re-evaluate yourself and grow.
A step at a time…
Cheers,
Deborah – Melbourne
go well.
Choose contentment, it lasts a long time.
Great news…..
Ali